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                                                       Fuck You

fuck you for leaving.
fuck you for telling me your coming back
fuck you for making me sad
fuck you for making me cry
fuck you for making me laugh
fuck you for telling me to come say goodbye
fuck you for having her there
fuck you for swinging us around and playing us like cards
fuck you for making me belive in something for once
fuck you for making me a little less bitchy
fuck you for always being right
fuck you for making me want to stay
fuck you because theres no one else to fuck
youv taken off my edge.
iv bittin of more then i could chew

after i started typing this i relized it sounds like a poem. but its not. its the truth. and its ment for someone. someone who will never read it. Brian left today. i cried this morning. i miss him because theres no one here i can actually trust. Harlen is coming back. might live with me. then ill actually have someone. i have no friends. idk if i sound like whats her face about not having any friends because the reason she doesnt is because shes a bitch. my reason is they all seem to leave. Brian says hes coming back i know for a fact he isnt. its just obvious. maybe. ill call travis's fone to talk to him. hopefully he'll be around. he'll probably find some stupid girl. that Laurie girl hasnt called again and if she does im saying "hes gone. probably wont be back for along time. hes about 12 hours away if you drive. idk how long it will take if you walk but knock yourself out." and if she asked were he is im going to say "im not at liberty to say." haha. dumb bitch. well Serena, and Bum are the only ppl who will hang out with me now. and Bridget. but her Grandma hates us all. Serena is with Sam. so less time with her. and of course Bums with Bridget. so at las im still friendless. until Harlen comes back. in witch he'll probably find some stupid girl. the kids at the park are my friends, like Brandon,Fish, and John. Chase and Brennon. but they arnt the same. well. Jessi hates me guts. idc though if she wanted to beat my ass she had plently of chance to do it today. so idc then she told Serena "well i dont have a problem with you just that slut" but then hmm seems she was talking a TON of shit about serena to me. hmph. oh well. Fuck It.                      i hope you all enjoy not reading my entrys and just posting. cuz im really not the interesting.

kthnxbi

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omgsh stupid fgts need to stfu.

okay this weekend sucked AGAIN!. okay, so Serena and I got into two more fights. screw that we got over it. Jessi called me a whore. hah yep im such a whore. Leann left. we still arnt friends anymore. Brian met this stupid girl named Laurie. he gave her MY number so now she calls me ALL THE TIME. last night i was so pissed. and she called me this is our convo

her:can i talk to Brian?
me:who is this?
her:Laurie. is Brian there?
*i kick into little preppy girl making fun of vioce*
me:hah lyke no hes out eating dinner with a girl
*the girl was serena but ohwell*
her:do you know when he'll be back
me:lyke omg no i dont. and i dont care either
her:could you tell him i called?
me:hehe lyke no

then i hung up the phone. erg stay away from our dick stupid girl then she just called today

her:can i talk to Brian
me:who is this?
her:laurie
me:dude no he doesnt live here. this is my phone not his.
her:i know but i thought you might be by him
me:no! obviously im not stop calling!
her:you dont have to be a smart ass
me:well you keep fucking calling my phone and it pisses me off
her:well you dont have to be a bitch
me:i am get over it. call his house not mine
then she hung up. stupid whore.

erg i hate her so much. i want her to start shit. ya know what? if Brian did pick her over me; then i would simply steal his smilie and get a butchers knife. i found a HUGE one and get Serena to help and we would obviously beat the shit outa her wigger like ass. shes obsessed and shes met him once. shes really lucky the night we met her Jessi wasnt standing there or she would of been in shit. im really mad trying to get ahold of Brian telling him to make her back the fuck off. Harlen might move in with me. if he wants to hed have a free place. all hed have to do is like moe the lawn. im so mad right now. ERG! DIE i want to kill someone! screw this. i honestly have no friends anymore. stupid assholes. E R G    !                     Harlen is the only one i trust at the moment. Serena and i keep fighting. and Brian is screwing me,Serena, and Jessi over. and really Alyssa to. E R G im talking shit in this post because its not like anyone reads this shit anyway. then now my neighbor is coming over to question me about Robin. cuz i guess he ran away down here from Oklahoma. yep. so they are questioning me about it. asking me were Brian was last night and if iv seen Robin. cuz oddly enough our neighbors are REALLY good friends with Travis and Robins parents soooo ya they come to spend time with them. Travis will be staying right across the street from me sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo that will be cool i guess. i wonder when GinTHER will get back from Boston. whom knows. eh this is way to long of a post anyway. love you all........NOT.

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omgsh. has anyone seen Lohan and Ritchie lately? they are so thin! Nicole can actually pull it off without looking to awkward. BUT Linsday looks so gross. and she died her hair bleed blonde its A.W.F.U.L           gross. she looks bad.

i hafta go on a diet i really do. i wanna weigh like 100! that would be awsome. not practicle cuz thats to much to lose but still i can wish. that reminds me i got diet pills again! from serena. i need to find a person over 18 to buy me trimspa! that would be way rad. serena is going out with Travis! muahahahahahahahahaha lmao that is absolutely hilarious. anyway. uh       thats it. laters

{oh also i need more cds mine are all so boring now.}

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!!!!!!!!!!PICTURES!!!!!!!!!!!

1}Bailey {not i tis my bff from the 3rd grade} and Harlen
2}Lauren made a camp fire in the haunted woods!
3}Brian and Sere
4}Harlen and Brian.......Harlen reminds me of a little mouse or something it cracks me up i had to  post
5}Johns shoe? who knows how i got a pic of his shoe. who wants to know?
not i
6} haha they sold these at my school. sourpuss!